The Dream

Last night I had a dream. I was swimming in the deep end of a pool with someone that I needed to take a break from. I wanted to swim over to talk with two of my new friends and asked the person I was presently with to give me a few minutes and I would be right back.

As I swam toward my new friends.. a couple.. I turned my head and the person I had needed some space from was following right behind me.. I was mad and began to confront them as to why they had followed me. I woke up.

As I went out to walk this morning, I asked the LORD about the dream because as I thought about it.. it made sense with what has been happening in my personal life.

The LORD said: The 'deep water' symbolizes what you are not able to control... you are 'in over your head'.. and cannot touch the bottom to change your circumstances. You felt you had some control when you excused yourself from the friend you needed space from.. that made you feel you had 'some' control over people that are not healthy, toxic, broken, overwhelming, smothering you or crowding your life. You thought you could get away. You saw you could not and that made you terribly angry and frustrated!

Then He took me into the Word when I got back to the house again.. and showed me... 'children'. The LORD said that these people in my life that are toxic, broken, sinful and what not are just like all of us.. we are all the same.. imperfect and in need of a Savior.. Jesus. Some of us will turn to the LORD and some.. sadly.. will not. But.. regardless ALL people need love, honor, and respect. Some people are harder to deal with and be around for long periods of time.

My struggle has been that I am very idealistic.. not always realistic. I need to 'get it' that ALL people ARE broken and in sin in some areas of their lives and that sooner or later we all show.. not only our good and healthy sides, but our weak and broken sides too. Some of us have more than others that shows... and it affects us in lesser to greater degrees.

This week I have been around those here at my old home and even at my own home that are toxic.. sick in the head and heart...and will not get well. I have a responsibility to them to love, honor and respect them. To care for them as I should before the LORD.. but there is wisdom in knowing that when it gets to be too much I need to take a step back... a step out.. and pray.. intercede... release to God..(like the fountain). But I also need to have patience and tolerance with them.. and ask for wisdom while with them that the Holy Spirit might continue to model Christ and minister to them through me.

For those that are in Christ.. I need to see them as children of GOD's and relate with them as such... like disciples... bringing them along. I cannot recoil when I see and hear their 'stuff' .. I have to have the patience of Christ and see their potential.


I also need people like this in my life.. who will hang in there with me.

Change me LORD.. Change my heart. Make me like JESUS. AMEN.