Does GOD Give You His Spirit And Work Miracles Among You Because You Observe The Law; Or Because You Believe What You Heard?

Galatians 3:5... Hmm.

If' I am totally honest, I will say because of the 'environment' I grew up in in New England.. I totter between the two. Religion and it's traditional thoughts are tough to root out and overcome. I have been working on this with the LORD for over 25 years or better.

All of my life has been about earning and deserving. Earning and deserving gets you somewhere... grace means nothing.. it does not truly exist. The world leans the same way and the devil works overtime to beat one up with it.. because he knows it'll wear us down and wipe us out if we buy it.

Today.. I still have the tendency to think I am owed.. or entitled. Not to the basic things for any REAL Father has Covenanted to care for His ..his.. children. But.. there are honestly times when I don't think I deserve some or many of the cards I have been dealt. I become mopey, whiny and not just a little moved into the.. "life isn't fair.. and testy mode.' I had better be glad life is not fair!!

Why is it so hard to get away from old thought patterns.. even those that are not thought consciously.. but deep down they are hiding like salamanders under the leaves and RUN at the first sight of Light!  I get caught in these covert places many times over.

Jesus never promised us a rose garden or any garden in all it's beauty until this DAY is over. He DID promise us.. trials, tribulations, testings, battles, wars, challenges, storms, and even some earthquakes, famines, and the like. DID I sign up for that? Yep. I guess I just didn't GET IT at first.. kind of like when the Israelites came our of Egypt they were led in a way that they did not have any battles at first. They just basked in the celebration of their Freedom and of the GOD who loved them. THEN.. it came. GOD did not try and fool me.. I just did not understand fully what I was going to walk in to... until now. But.. everyday when He reveals His Presence.. I am captivated by Him, His Love, Comfort, Peace, Truth.. and His awesome Strength. There is no where else to go, and no where else I want to be, than with my Jesus.

Hold onto me Jesus.. Hold on to me.. I am holding on to You.. the best I know how. Whatever You do with me is Your concern.. and I CAN and WILL continue to trust You the best I am able.. with Your help. I know that ALL WILL be WELL once more.. but not because I deserve it or have earned it.. but because YOU are FOR me and You Love me.